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Lost of a True Love

Ok today is a very sad day for me...I have lost My first love.. ...My Love has been in my life from since I was in JHS.... we dabbled a bit in elementary, but my parents were not happy and would do some heavy blocking. But once I hit JHS, My Love and I would reunite and it felt so good. My love has been there through my ups, downs and in betweens (lol the title of this blog)...My Love helped me through my chunky days and trust me that was a good chunk of my childhood. My Love also helped me again through my stressful times at work, comforted me on those "female" days. There wouldn't be a time that my Love wouldn't be there to comfort me....sigh...how will I go on now that we are no longer compatible. I tried to deny that we were drifting apart, folks always said that you were bad for, that you didn't mean any good to my health, but you always know just how to make me so happy. I tried on my occasions to let you go, and I would break out in sweets, wouldn't be able to sleep, until you and I were one. I am not sure why today is different from any other day, but you just turned me off, you left a very nasty taste in my mouth, you made my stomach turn. I tried to rationalize why I was feeling this way, I told myself, that it must be just bad time and tried you again later, but there it was that sinking feeling of me knowing that we can no longer be together...I must now find another Love, but I know this new love will not come close to what we had....


Saying Good-bye to "My Love" ~Pepsi....
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